How does it all fit???

So when it comes to life is it family or funds? I know the answer seems so easy, family right? Well if that is the case what is making mine so hard? I want to work to live not live to work but how do I make this my reality? I'm not so sure. We all come to those cross roads where one of two things happen. One, also the most rare, everything falls into place or two, nothing falls into place. The latter would be where I am right now. Wanting to be a great mom and a great provider but in todays "american life" having both without struggling to keep it all together seems impossible. From the moment my eyes open until the second they close I am running running running. It is a day full of picking and choosing. Do I sleep in because I stayed up way too late last night trying to get caught up on the housework. If I sleep in do I still have time to shower??? Oh wait, that was one of the kids getting up, scratch the shower. Kids are up, what are they wearing, eating, bringing, taking, sharing today at daycare and/or school. Did they brush hair, teeth, wash faces, get lotion and God forbid Miss Aubrey goes somewhere without her lips on. All of this and not one thought about myself!!! Please dont get it twisted. I love being a mom and I love my babies more then life it's self but this is one of those dark secrets that only once you've been hit with motherhood comes out of the woodwork. Luckily todays women are about talking and sharing cause otherwise you'd think you were nuts : ) Okay this was an example of my, ohhh its shiny, moments. So thought for today how do you be the best wife, mother, daughter, cousin, friend, employee you can be and have room for it all. If it's all important how does it fit. Only time will tell. I'm working on a little self restrucure program. I'll let you know how things progress. Peace and Love.

Here we go

So I have read so many people's blogs. I have finally started my own and am now feeling a little Carrie Bradshawish. Not sure exactly what I am going to blog about but stay tuned. I am more crazy then people know. I am an only child, so strong willed but with no will power when it comes to some things.....is that even right??? I love my soon-to-be husband more then I ever thought possible and the thought that he was made devinely for me is more then I can even wrap my head around. I am a horrible speller...so have fun :) My son Brady is 4 and he makes me laugh eveyday. My baby girl Aubrey is 3 and a total little momma. She can heal a boo-boo almost as well as I can. I have been blessed with 2 children, Christopher and Makayla that God has placed into my life in such a way that makes me thankful for every sunrise and sunset. We are learning more about each other every chance we get. I'm trying to stop questioning the reason for most things around me. I can hear God say "because I said so", LOL!! My family is the most, most, most important thing other then my faith. I have turned a new leaf and I'm stepping up my responsibility to God and living a Christ centered life. Other then childbirth and making a commitment to myself to get healthly and shed some lbs, which I am still waiting on that to happen, is the single hardest thing I have ever done. Funny enough, just like the other 2 things that I mentioned, all 3 have the same awesome floating out-of body experience, best high ever that I could never put into words. So this is all for now. Just wanted to get my feet wet :) Watch out for the splash. LOL!

xoxo